selfish spoiled brat

Dear God,

Please forgive me for being so selfish. I have forgotten that it is because of you that I have what I have. You have chosen to bless me or not to bless me for your own reasons. Please help me to get rid of my selfishness. I want my life to bring you glory, and I know that I need to stop focusing on myself and focus on what I can do to make you happy. I have forgotten that what you have already given me is a free gift that I do not deserve in the first place. How is it that we as humans forget this so quickly. If we are made uncomfortable for a while we feel like we are owed something by you since you are in control? I am so sorry for always blaming you when things get a little uncomfortable.
Jesus, please come into my heart and don't ever leave me! I need you to help me to change all the areas that need changing. I want my life to glorify God. I can honestly say that lately it hasn't. I feel bad about this and I have been trying to go my own way. It doesn't work. The joy has not been there. I don't want to go through this hard time alone. I need God to get me through this. I want to be able to bring glory to God during this season in my life. Please show me how.
God I hope you can forgive me for being so selfish and for only thinking of my own needs. No wonder you have been hiding yourself from me lately. I look at who I am right now and I don't like it. I need Jesus to help me change because I don't know how to change myself. I feel so wretched as a person. I am just amazed that you can still love someone who is such a mess.
Your unconditional love is so over my head. I act like a selfish spoiled brat and you still take me back each time.
Teach me your ways God. Teach me how to be like your son, Jesus. I need a spiritual make over and fast! I fear the enemy taking my joy and taking me away from you. I am sorry for how I have behaved recently. I ask your forgiveness and I ask for your instruction on what I can do to bring you glory in my current situation. I love you and I never want to be apart from you. I need to start focusing on what is above instead of what is here. I need to remember that here is only temporary!

Love,
Heather