not sure if I am the only one who feels this way, but sometimes I feel like I am crazy for being
able to hear from God. When I was saved, I couldn't hear from God yet, but now I hear from him on pretty much a daily basis. The Bible talks about supernatural power and miracles. I think it is pretty supernatural that I can hear from God ! I also am amazed and in awe at His love for me and that He wants a relationship with me. Sometimes I feel like so undeserving of this kind of love, and it is hard to accept such a wonderful gift. I can't quite wrap my brain around it all yet, but then maybe I'm not supposed to. That is why He is so amazing and should always be feared!

In the midst of still learning who I am in Christ, I am now learning of Christ's love for me as well. It is mind blowing to think that He loves me and finds me beautiful in the way a husband would his wife. I am having trouble grasping this. Am I supposed to take it litterally or is this a figurative example of his love for us? I tend to take things litterally when I learn of them.
I am grateful that Christ loves me and finds me beautiful, but I still have issued finding myself
beautiful and acceptable to me. This is all just a little over my head at the moment. I am hoping that group tomorrow will help me understand better. I guess I just feel so undeserving of this kind of love and acceptance when I don't even feel accepted in this world to begin with.

Dear Lord,

Thank you so much for allowing me to experience complete joy as I have never felt before.
Each day I continue to be amazed at how you are working in my life. I have never been this happy. It is strange how complete I feel and yet I still have so much work to do. I enjoy getting to know you and I enjoy being able to hear from you and know what you want for my life.
I have surrendered my heart and soul to you and I am yours forever! Nothing can seperate me from your grace and your love! Knowing that you are always with me wherever I go is the greatest comfort. Especially for one who has many anxieties in this world.
I pray that you will use me in a way that you know I will be able to reach others and bring them to you. I want everyone to experience your love the way I have. I only live for you now and I want my life to bring you glory! If only they knew how wonderful you are!
I love you.

In Need of Wisdom!

Now that I have figured out what I want to do, the question is which school to attend?
I can go to Central Piedmont and spend a couple of years at this thing and take it at my own pace, or I can go to UNCC and do everything in one semester. This is frustrating becuase I want to do it right and not just out of convenience. At UNCC I could get finished a lot sooner but it would only be a certificate. CPCC I could get a diploma, but it might take a year or two to finish.
I am anxious to get a better job and secure my future, but I want to make the right decision.
UNCC requires a lot crammed into one semester to learn everything and I don't know if I could apply myself and succeed with the requirements. CPCC allows me to work at my own pace with a better chance for success as I am not the studious type when I feel pressure and overloaded.
Please pray that I will find direction on this. I don't know if this is the enemy trying to stear me in wrong direction, or if this is the challenge that God wants for me. I really need discernment and wisdom right nwo. HELLP!

authority

I am having a lot of issues with this one. With God and with people in my life.
It is hard to surrender to people you have a hard time respecting, and it is hard to
obey the Lord in times of waiting when you want to just dive in to something.
Patience and surrendering are two of my biggest obstacles right now. Please pray
that I will learn how to be dilligent in both. Advice is always welcome.
I've always been stubborn and a "learn the hard way kind of person". I want to
break that pattern in my life.