here are some questions I've been pondering lately:

1) When the Lord tells to wait before doing something and you know how long to wait, what
are you supposed to do until that time comes?

2) When the Lord promises to answer a prayer request in his perfect timing, and you are an impatient person like myself, what can I do to keep the faith even when progress is not being
made that I am aware of?

3) How can I learn to humble myself and stop being so self-centered and all about me?

4) And the whole love your neighboor concept is something I am struggling with as well.

If anyone has advice on these concepts, I am open. Thanks!

so this weekend I learned how to better communicate with my husband.
things are so much easier when you just talk through them instead of holding in
anger and frustration. that only makes things worse.
I need to not be afraid to speak my feelings to him on a regular basis, not just when
we are frustrated. I always fear a negative reaction from him and that is not fair to him.
I am actually judging him when I shouldn't be. I just need to have courage to be open and
expect good things.

Freedom in Christ

how is it that we are washed clean of all our guilt and condemnation through the blood of
Jesus, but we can't seem to forgive ourselves and continue to live in our own condemnation?
Is that just the enemy trying to keep us down, or is it something we hold on to because our
freedom in Christ seems to good to be true sometimes? Am I the only one who feels this way?
I think I have a lot to work on in that department.

Knowing Jesus

ok, just finished this book...Blue Like Jazz. It is the best book I have read in a very long time.
It is real ya know?
Left me thinking though... how can a person get saved, know God, have a prayer life, know who Jesus is and what Jesus did for them, but still not quite feel it deep in their soul?
That is what I am experiencing right now. I want Jesus to be real to my core for me. I know each person has their own journey of getting to that point, but I fear I am at a loss becuase I don't know where to begin. It is all head knowledge, but it needs to become more to me than that. This is what I long for! Please tell me that I am not the only person who has this problem! How can it change?

Balance

Well I have been working so hard lately at work that I am exhausted mentally!
This time of year is the busyest for me at work, and it is non stop! It always
hits me and I forget what it is like during the slower months. I have a hard
time balancing my work from the rest of my life. Does anyone know about balance?
I sure could use some advice. I fear that I put all my energy into my work that when
I get home, I have no energy left to spend time with family or friends outside of work.
I am also more tired than usual. Don't quite understand why. How can I possibly have
enough energy for everything that I need to do each day? I guess that is something
I should pray for is strength mentally and physically. But if anyone out there has other
options for balance, I am open.

God's Creations

ok, so yesterday I went to Daniel Stowe gardens with my mom for her Mother's day gift.
That place is amazing! What is even more amazing is how God knew what he was doing when
he created the earth and all the living things in it.
How did he know to create such colors for the flowers and even the foliage? The intricate designs of the orchid or the iris? It just blows my mind that he loved us that much to give us
such a gift to enjoy while we are here. But I also realize the responsibility we have to protect and care for this planet as well.
What an awsome experience. I highly recommend a vist to Daniel Stowe if you haven't been.
It will truley make you appreciate what God has created!

First blog ever

well I sure am new to this whole thing, but excited to see what happens with it. wish me luck all of you bloggers out there!