Psalm 46:10-Be Still....

Recently it has been brought to my attention that I need to be still. I can't hear God speaking
to me if I am not still. This is very hard for me to do. It has always been hard for me to sit still
my whole life. I am so easily distracted and my mind can have thoughts jump all over the place. I feel as if God is challenging me to be still. I may not even hear from Him every time, but just to be still, quiet my mind and to be in His presence. I feel that if I can do this, over time, my intimacy with Him will be that much more. I am tired of my quiet time getting to ritualistic. I don't want time spent with God to be something I feel like I have to do. I feel the only way to get beyond that point is to be still. I accept the challenge even if it means I can only do it for 5 minutes a day. I know that like anything, the more I keep at it the better it'll get.
Another challenge I have is to live each day for that day only. I can eliminate much worry and anxiety from my life by doing this. If I am only concerned about the present and not thinking so much ahead I can truely enjoy life the way God intended me to.
All this I learned just by spending time with God. It is amazing how He teaches me each and every day! How is it possible that I am even able to be receptive of what He wants me to know?
I think that is supernatural in itself. :0)

Dear Jesus,

Please forgive me for my sins. If there are sins I am not aware of, please point them out to me so I may repent. I want to be made clean. I know that I have a problem following the deisres of my own heart, and that blocks me from hearing your will for my life.
I only want your will. I am desperate to hear from you on a daily basis. Please speak to me so I know what you want me to do. I only want to please you and not myself. Help me to get out of the way of your will.
I know I am stubborn in obedience if it means giving something up for you. I want you to remove that stubbornness from my spirit so that I will be quick to obey. I need you more than the air I breathe and I love you. I can't do anything without you directing my every step.
I promise to always obey if you will just tell me what to do in a way that only I can understand.
I feel like I have not had a sanctified and circumcised ear. I need to stop running to others on what I should do about things. I need to run to you before I seek confirmation elsewhere.
Please forgive me for being unsure of myself and unsure of you. All I ask is that you speak to me and make me clean and renewed each day. And last but not least, make my motives your motives so that I don't have a chance to follow the desires of my own heart.

Love,
Heather

We all need a good pruning every once in a while!

So this past weekend was pretty intense for me. I was not feeling God's presence when I went looking for Him, and I had to do some real searching to figure out why He chose to hide himself from me.
What I discovered completely changed everything. God spoke to me after I threw my little temper tantrum and said, you need to stop putting so much faith in teachers this world and put all of your faith in me. Learning from earthly teachers is good, but I need to go to God first and balance the rest so that I don't forget that God is the one who gives the teachers their message.
I was putting too much time and engergy into learning from a certain teacher and not enough time learning from God. So he hid himself until I diligently sought him out. He really is a jealous God!
Another thing that he spoke to me was that I need to take emphasis of myself so much and my desires and focus on what He desires of me. I was being disobedient in that He told me something to do and I went and did the opposite out of fear and control.
He also spoke that I need to focus only on putting him first, letting him teach me through the word, loving others, and obeying Him always.
I finally feel like I am getting back to normal now. It is not a good feeling when you don't feel that God is near. But sometimes I need to be made aware and that is how He chooses to reach me.
I can't believe I was not even aware that these simple things were sin, but to God they are.
Please pray for me that I will be quick to obey and seek Him in everything that I do!