In addition to my prayer from yesterday, what to you think I should do about a part time job?
I don't know who would hire someone that can only work a day shift before 5 on Tuesdays and only two weekends out of the month. My situation is tight for working another job. I would gladly do it if I could find the right one. God please make my way clear as if you even think I need this right now or if you think I am just being paranoid. If you want me to get a second job, please put opportunities in my path that make it clear! I am not to good at figuring this out on my own, so I need your help. Also, if you think I don't need a second job, make that clear too. I don't want to make a bad decision for my family. Please give me wisdom on this situation! I love you and I wait and expect for your will where this is concerned on my life right now.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Saturday, January 10, 2009
prayer request for all
Dear God,
I would like to pray for our economy. It is really starting to hit home as I am now experiencing
what it is like not to be comfortable financially. I am concerned for the country as a whole though. If we don't start seeing improvement soon Lord, I don't know what is going to happen. I am scared for myself and for others who are struggling as well.
Please hear my cry for help and also the cries of others for a change much needed. Please help us get back on our feet so that we can start serving you in ways that are much needed! I feel that a lack of income actually prevents some from truly being able to serve in ways they want to. I know that there are people who have not been tithing for this very reason!
Please give us a sign that you have a plan to help our country get back on track! And if there is some other way that I can serve you w/o money involved, please let me know and I will gladly
do it.
Thank you for your amazing love and for your grace and mercy that surround me each day. I may not have much right now to speak of, but would be even more lost without you!
I would like to pray for our economy. It is really starting to hit home as I am now experiencing
what it is like not to be comfortable financially. I am concerned for the country as a whole though. If we don't start seeing improvement soon Lord, I don't know what is going to happen. I am scared for myself and for others who are struggling as well.
Please hear my cry for help and also the cries of others for a change much needed. Please help us get back on our feet so that we can start serving you in ways that are much needed! I feel that a lack of income actually prevents some from truly being able to serve in ways they want to. I know that there are people who have not been tithing for this very reason!
Please give us a sign that you have a plan to help our country get back on track! And if there is some other way that I can serve you w/o money involved, please let me know and I will gladly
do it.
Thank you for your amazing love and for your grace and mercy that surround me each day. I may not have much right now to speak of, but would be even more lost without you!
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Confession
I feel the need to explain something about myself to those I know and love. I am a very insecure person in case you all haven't noticed. This is why I behave in certain ways that I do. God has made me aware that I need to work on this so that I can be secure in His love for me. I have always had a hard time accepting his love and not doubting it. I don't want to be that person anymore.
Ever since I was young, I have pursued my friendships and relationships with others. I have never sat back and let others come to me. This even happens in my marriage, my family, and my friendships. Because I am so afraid that others really will forget about me if I don't remind them that I am around and available to hang out or whatever, this has sometimes caused me to loose friendships as well. I push things too much. I am sorry for all of those I have annoyed with this. I am especially sorry to myself for not allowing things to just happen. Especially in my marriage. This explains why I feel as if I don't know if my husband wants me sometimes as he has never had to pursue me. I have always been the one pursuing.
I need to take a break and just be. And if I end up loosing relationships because of damage already done, then I feel that I'm better off knowing how others truly feel about me. Maybe that is what God wants me to learn in this process. Maybe I don't need everyone to like me. Maybe I need to be okay with that. I don't know. But whatever I am supposed to learn, I know that I am tired of loosing friends because of my insecurities. I also know that I am just tired of being insecure. In Christ we are supposed to be totally secure! With everything!
It is just amazing how God speaks to me and I can hear what I am supposed to hear and try to do something with it. That is more important to me than anything right now. I know he will help me get over my fear of being left out and my fear of being rejected. It will take time as it took years of wrong thinking and wrong actions for me to get where I am. But that is part of the journey and I am ready to change.
So for those of you that actually read my blog, I first apologize for being so needy and insecure. I know now that God does not want me to be that way. And second, I hope you can forgive me for times when I have been persistent! I love you all and I love God for helping me to realize what I need to work on to be the person He wants me to be.
Ever since I was young, I have pursued my friendships and relationships with others. I have never sat back and let others come to me. This even happens in my marriage, my family, and my friendships. Because I am so afraid that others really will forget about me if I don't remind them that I am around and available to hang out or whatever, this has sometimes caused me to loose friendships as well. I push things too much. I am sorry for all of those I have annoyed with this. I am especially sorry to myself for not allowing things to just happen. Especially in my marriage. This explains why I feel as if I don't know if my husband wants me sometimes as he has never had to pursue me. I have always been the one pursuing.
I need to take a break and just be. And if I end up loosing relationships because of damage already done, then I feel that I'm better off knowing how others truly feel about me. Maybe that is what God wants me to learn in this process. Maybe I don't need everyone to like me. Maybe I need to be okay with that. I don't know. But whatever I am supposed to learn, I know that I am tired of loosing friends because of my insecurities. I also know that I am just tired of being insecure. In Christ we are supposed to be totally secure! With everything!
It is just amazing how God speaks to me and I can hear what I am supposed to hear and try to do something with it. That is more important to me than anything right now. I know he will help me get over my fear of being left out and my fear of being rejected. It will take time as it took years of wrong thinking and wrong actions for me to get where I am. But that is part of the journey and I am ready to change.
So for those of you that actually read my blog, I first apologize for being so needy and insecure. I know now that God does not want me to be that way. And second, I hope you can forgive me for times when I have been persistent! I love you all and I love God for helping me to realize what I need to work on to be the person He wants me to be.
Monday, January 5, 2009
Goals for 2009
As we all know, the New Year brings a time of New Beginings. The following list includes the New Beginings I wish to get started with in 2009!
1) Know God more intimately
2) Know myself more intimately
3) Train myself to not allow my feelings to control my thoughts/actions
4) Be a healthier me (spiritually, physically, mentally)
5) Read one book per month
6) Engage in one of my many interests per month
7) Serve others- this goal will also help with another goal to not focus so much on myself
8) Spend more time in nature
9) Stay on a schedule for sleeping and eating
10) Enjoy my life no matter what circumstance I may face!
1) Know God more intimately
2) Know myself more intimately
3) Train myself to not allow my feelings to control my thoughts/actions
4) Be a healthier me (spiritually, physically, mentally)
5) Read one book per month
6) Engage in one of my many interests per month
7) Serve others- this goal will also help with another goal to not focus so much on myself
8) Spend more time in nature
9) Stay on a schedule for sleeping and eating
10) Enjoy my life no matter what circumstance I may face!
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